Confessions of an Ex-Lawyer

Below You will find:

  • The purchase information of the book
  • Book Trailer
  • The story behind writing the book
  • Frequently asked questions
  • The list of Eva’s symptoms during depression, anxiety disorder and panic attacks
  • Free preview

Confessions of an ex-lawyer cover



This book is currently available only in the e-book format (Kindle, ePub). It can be purchased through iTunes or through the webshop’s of most Estonian bookstores. The price of the book is approximately 3 to 9 EUR (the price varies due to the bookstores policies).

Buy from -> iTunes

Estonian bookstores:




Rahva Raamat



Eva Tenter is an ex-lawyer, who found happiness, health and love after 26 years of struggling with her negativity vortex that included several stress induced mental illnesses (depression, anxiety, eating disorders, panic attacks).

The main keys to Eva’s healing were:

  • Overcoming childhood trauma
  • Converting negative thoughts to positive
Eva Tenter
Eva Tenter

The successful result was of course not easy to accomplish. The process took some time and a lot of emotional effort. But the outcome was so amazing and it exceeded all expectations that Eva initially had regarding improving her life and health.

Eva discovered and learned a lot of helpful material during her healing journey.

Since she does not believe in keeping helpful information to herself, she decided to share her story and advice with others.


Have you ever looked in the mirror or gazed at the horizon and found yourself thinking:

“I’m so tired of everything. Is this really how life is supposed to be like? Is happiness even possible?”

Eva Tenter is an ex-lawyer from Estonia, who had contemplated those exact thoughts for many times.

Until one day she found herself in a place, where those questions could not be left without answers any longer.

Eva Tenter


She was very ill and her entire life had become unbearably miserable.

At first she didn’t have the faintest idea on what to do, but she had courage. She had the courage to just take the first step and jump into the unknown.

So she took the jump …

Eva Tenter



After 26 years of anxiety, depression and tons of negativity, Eva had finally had enough. Although this final point of exhaustion should have taken place sooner, it didn’t.

Like the majority of people, Eva did not stop the wheels of negativity until her health was completely shattered.

Throughout these 26 years she had suffered from anxiety disorder, depression, eating disorders, panic attacks and much much more negative stuff that rotated in her life daily.

Stress induced mental illnesses


The jump to the unknown was followed by a hectic couple of years of turning her life upside down and inside out, but she finally made it.

She was finally cured and also found happiness and love along the way.

On her journey, she learned about the secrets and techniques of many different alternative therapy methods, eliminating childhood trauma, metaphysics, quantum physics and much more.



Most importantly – she trained herself to think more positively.

In the end, this turned out to be one of the key elements in her healing process and thus also her happiness journey.


After a really bumpy road, she made it to her happy place and thought:

“My story could help so many others. Shouldn’t I share it?”

The rest is history and you can now, in addition to Eva’s blog ‘Power of Positive Thoughts’, read her first book ‘Confessions of an Ex-Lawyer’, which is a 100% true story about her healing journey.

Sinu sisemine rahu ootab sind

Eva is not afraid to share anything, because she knows that it can help many people.

She also believes that if she could find true happiness, health and inner peace after all those miserable years filled with stress induced mental illnesses and huge piles of negativity, then so can everyone else.

All you need as a start is your own decision to do so.


Eva sincerely hopes that her story gives you the courage, support and ’insider’ advice you need to start your own journey to happiness, inner peace, health, love and joy.

It took her 26 years to understand, what’s really important in life.

She sincerely hopes that you do not make the same mistake and waste so many years of your life on negativity, when you could be happy instead.

Eva Tenter



  • All keys to your happiness, inner peace, joy, love and health are hidden inside you, not outside. Start looking for answers from inside and you will find all that you have been looking for.
  • The actual reasons behind mental illnesses are in the subconscious mind and they are stemming from a very early childhood.
  • If you are suffering from mental health problems, then start your healing journey by seeking and asking for help. Do not be afraid to talk about your mental problems.
  • Anxiety disorder, depression, panic attacks and eating disorders are absolutely curable illnesses.
  • There is no need to fear psychologists, psychiatrists and other therapists, because they are usually very wonderful and helpful people.
  • A person suffering from depression, anxiety disorder, panic attacks and/or eating disorders should not under any circumstances be considered as “insane” or “inadequate”. This kind of negative terms should not be used at all, because it is precisely because of the wide use of such terms that people are afraid to admit to themselves and to others that they might have problems mentally. Therefore, they also do not seek for help with these problems.



Below is the list of symptoms that Eva Tenter had during Depression, Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder (Panic Attacks).

Please note that these are the symptoms that she personally experienced, therefore the symptoms can be different for you based on your specific situation and phase of these mental illnesses!

If you suspect that you might have any of these illnesses, then please get professional help as soon as possible!

Please remember that Eva is here just to share her own personal experiences with these illnesses in order to give you courage to get help with your problems. She is not a doctor!

Eva’s symptoms were:

  • Worrying about everything, even the smallest things
  • Especially worrying about socialising with other people and meeting new people
  • Fear of the dark, fear of narrow spaces, fear of open spaces, fear of people and other phobias
  • Fear of death
  • Hyperventilation
  • Sudden feeling that you are going to loose your mind (without anything actually being wrong or irritating)
  • Sudden feeling that you have to escape from the place you are at (without anything actually being wrong or irritating)
  • Feeling dizzy at shopping malls to the point, where you no longer wish to go to any big shopping malls because you are afraid that you will faint
  • Feeling dizzy while driving a car
  • Feeling like you cannot breathe anymore and the following fear that you might be having a heart attack
  • Fear of fainting at crowded places
  • Fear to go too far from home alone
  • Feeling of being extremely down/stressed out/depressed for long periods in a row
  • Emotional shifts/ Mood swings from high to low many many times a day without any actual reasons for the moods to swing/emotions to shift
  • Fear of failure
  • Constant need to gain other people’s approval in order to feel good
  • Hearing that nagging voice inside your head that constantly says you are not good enough
  • Sudden palpitation
  • Feeling that nothing interests you anymore
  • Activities/things that you previously loved do not matter to you anymore
  • No matter what you do, you cannot find peace anywhere
  • Sleeping problems
  • Headaches, pain in the neck
  • A choking feeling in your throat
  • Attention deficit
  • Feeling exhausted all the time
  • Feeling like the whole world is falling down on you

Note – This list contains only some of the symptoms that Eva experienced!

If you have even one of these symptoms, then you should consult a mental health professional. If you catch these illnesses at an early stage, then these illnesses do not get the chance to disable you!

However, if you leave these mental illnesses untreated, then they only get worse!

So please get help at your earliest convenience if you are experiencing any mental discomfort.


Below are some of the questions that the readers of “Confessions Of An Ex-Lawyer” have asked the author. All answers are given by the author personally!

Q: What is depression?

A: Depression is a mental illness. Read above this list of symptoms that I have brought out. Depression is usually diagnosed, when you have been feeling abnormally stressed out or down for a longer period (couple of weeks in a row) and you feel that you just cannot get out of this low anymore, no matter what you do. The actual diagnosis can of course be made only by a psychiatrist, therefore please consult a psychiatrist as soon as possible when you feel that you have mental problems.

Q: Is “Confessions Of An Ex-Lawyer” a true story?

A: Yes, this book is a true story from beginning to end.

Q: Will you write a sequel to the book “Confessions Of An Ex-Lawyer”?

A: Yes, I am planning to write a sequel to this book that will cover and give a reply to all the detailed questions that I received from the readers of “Confessions Of An Ex-Lawyer”.

Q: Is this book depressing to read?

A: No, definitely not. Although I wrote about my life and my experiences with the mentioned mental illnesses, the book is not meant to be depressing in any way. It is designed to send all readers a lot of love, support and inspiration. I have also included many photos in the book to illustrate my story and give many chances for the reader to take a thought pause.

Q: Is this book text only?

A: Absolutely not! Actually as a surprise to many people, this book contains many beautiful and inspiring photos.

Q: Is this book one of those boring educational/ medical books filled with tons of boring medical details?

A: No, definitely not. I can assure you that this is a fun and inspiring book to read.

Q: I don’t have a lot of time to read books. Is this one of those huge books that take forever to read?

A: No, absolutely not. I am not a fast reader myself, therefore I can relate to your situation very well. I actually also very much prefer to read books that are not “thousand-pagers”. And this is exactly why I intentionally designed this book to be a bit under 100 pages, which is suitable for readers of all kind. In addition, I can assure you that it is extremely fun and easy/ fast to read for those readers, who do wish / love to read books, however just do not have that many hours to spend behind them. This book also contains many inspiring and beautiful photos that are meant to make this particular reading experience even more enjoyable. So I would honestly say that this book is definitely suitable and fun to read for everyone.

Q: Do you use difficult legal or medical language in the book?

A: Absolutely not! I have never been one of those people, who uses only extremely specific and complicated legal terms or “smart words” in order to seem “smart” or “sophisticated”. So there is no need to fear anything like this. The book is written in everyday language that is easily understandable for everyone.

Q (dated 2012): It seems that it was not that long ago when you got healed. How can you be sure that you really are completely 100% healed by now?

A (dated 2012): Yes, this is correct, it is not that long ago when I got my healthy life back. However, by now I can really say that I feel healthy and I am back in my normal state, where I can work, live and be the person I am. As you can see from the Book Trailer (on YouTube), there was also a one-month period last year, when I could not go outside anymore. I could not go outside anymore, because I developed a serious agoraphobia (the fear of wide-open spaces), which meant that I got a panic attack immediately when I stepped out of the door of my home… In comparison to this state, I feel absolutely wonderful at the moment and I really am sure that I will never ever let my health get to such a bad place anymore.

Furthermore, I have built a very strong support group for myself that will guarantee that I will never fall back to such bad health. I have also implemented meditation and EFT (emotional freedom technique) into my everyday life.

I also recommend the same to everyone else – build yourself a strong support group, because no-one can ever say with 100% certainty that they are cured from an illness and that it will never come back, regardless of which illness it is.

Even in case of a broken bone, you cannot say that you will never break that same bone again in your life. Same goes for flu – if you have flu and you recover from it with one week, can you say that you will never get flu again? Of course not! So why do people think that the case is different with mental illnesses? We should all always continuously live a healthy life in all aspects and take action to prevent getting ill. This means taking care of ourselves daily, both physically and mentally.


Below is the free preview of the Table of Contents and Chapter 1 of the book.

A longer preview is available via Google BooksGo to Google Books Preview

Table of Contents - Confessions of an Ex-Lawyer
Table of Contents – Confessions of an Ex-Lawyer


Chapter 1

Firstly, I would like to state this very clearly that I do not intend to hurt anyone with my book or to get some sort of revenge. I do not hold a grudge against anyone, who has said something negative to me or about me at any stages throughout my life. My book is completely about healing, love and gratitude.

The purpose of my book is to spread the message that depression, anxiety disorder and panic attacks are NOT incurable illnesses or something that make a person „disabled” or „crazy”. These illnesses should be thought of as only a temporary discomfort that can be healed as soon as you start looking inside of yourself, instead of looking outside.

I sincerely wish to share my story about my illnesses with all the „ugly details” and „dark secrets” in order to clarify, what exactly are depression, anxiety disorder / social anxiety and panic attacks from the „ill persons’“ perspective. And to clarify that if you have these illnesses, it does not mean that you are „crazy” or „inadequate” or „undeserving” or „disabled” (or whatever other negative term is used to describe the people with mental problems) in any way. These are only temporary illnesses and can be cured quite easily, once you admit to yourself that you are ill and start taking action to become healthy.

These are actually the two key decisions that you have to make for yourself.

In addition, you most probably need to face the fact that your life will change completely once you are cured. However, this change is definitely not something to be afraid of, instead, it will be an absolutely exhilarating freedom that you will be able to experience after you are cured.

Your life will become wonderful beyond any of your expectations and you will be wondering how was it even possible for you to be so negative before.

With this book I am sending out unlimited amounts of love, gratitude and support to everyone in the Universe and especially to those, who are still in the middle of their battle with these illnesses.

I love you all and hope you conquer your illness(es) sooner that you would have ever even imagined.



Sinu sisemine rahu ootab sind

Title: Your place of inner peace is waiting for you